Friday, 30 April 2010

Columbia University Sprinter Talks About His Reality

A long read but a good one. Cory Benton talks about being open in school.


On December 8, 2007, I lined up on the track amongst other elite athletes as we prepared ourselves to run an 800-meter race. My hands were trembling, and I could feel the sweat dripping down my forehead as I mentally composed myself for several firsts. It was my first race of the season at Columbia. It was my first time running an 800 in college. And it was my first time running as an openly gay athlete.

So many thoughts ran through my head. Did I have something new to prove? What if I did not run well? Would my teammates attribute a bad race to my homosexuality? All of these questions raced rapidly through my head as others walked toward the starting line. But I couldn’t move. I was petrified. I glanced over at my coach.

“Let’s go, Cory,” Coach Wood shouted. “Get out hard!” Somehow, as soon as he said those words, all of the negative feelings and thoughts disappeared. I was focused on the race at hand.

Coming out was hard for me because of my childhood. As a young child I was always very social and talkative. However, once I began to realize that I was little different, I started to suppress certain aspects of my personality. I consequently talked less and became a repressed, shy teenager lacking confidence.

In my affluent neighborhood on eastern Long Island, I was often made fun of for acting “white” because most of my friends were Caucasian. I was ostracized from the African-American community in my hometown because I never fit in.; I did have African-American friends, but most of my friends were white. As I got older, not using Ebonics seemed to have the effect of branding me as “white” and homosexual. I remember I was doing some homework in the library one evening and two people I knew, both African-American, were sitting at the same table a little further down. They were close enough that I could hear their conversation. One asked if they should sit closer to me and hang out; The other responded negatively saying that I was “too gay”. The other person’s jaw dropped and asked how he knew this. He said, “Just go talk to him. Listen to the way he talks and look at the way he dresses. He’s so white.”

It was mentally trying to hear things like this. I love who I am, the color of my skin, and the rich history and culture of my Jamaican ancestry. There is this stigma that comes with being gay, and an additional cultural stigma attached for being African American and gay, so coming out was not an option for me in high school, although many people already assumed I was gay. I knew no other African-American gay athlete to seek support from, so I made the conscious decision to continue hiding my sexuality and become something I wasn’t. It ate away at me every day, and I felt so uncomfortable with myself. How could I make these everlasting bonds with people while hiding something that is so important to me?

During the summer between my freshman and sophomore years of college, I couldn’t take the lying and sleepless nights anymore.

One of the first steps I knew I had to take after coming out to my family was to come out to my coaches. During the beginning of my sophomore year of college, I was thinking about quitting the team, and I actually did stop running for a semester because I was so uncomfortable with myself. I always thought there was no possible way an openly gay athlete could be accepted by so many people with so many different backgrounds. One of my biggest fears was the reaction of my coaches. I was uncertain how they would react, and I worried that they might no longer want me on their team. Although email is not the best way to communicate a very important message, I decided to email all of my coaches at once to tell them about my sexuality.

My head coach, Willy Wood, quickly replied and asked if I would like to come into his office and talk about it. What started off as a silent, awkward conversation turned into daily long conversations about my life and how my family was handling me coming out. I would sit in his office for sometimes hours and discuss how I felt about being gay, and how I felt now that I was out.

My coach has become a second father to me. The amount of support that he has offered is unparalleled. He would often ask me how the other guys on the team were responding to me being gay, and if I thought there should be a team meeting to discuss any issues I might have with some of the things that teammates would say that may come off as offensive. Thankfully, there were no major issues. Moreover, when I decided to take a break from the team, Coach Wood still emailed me every week to check on me. My own father never did that.

My other coach, Jon Clemens, emailed me in response to me coming out.

“Cory, I can’t be more blunt than this...I don’t care that you’re gay,” his email read. “It has nothing to do with your integrity, work ethic or development as a man.”

This is kind of cliché, but one of the many things that I have learned at Columbia is that you cannot judge a book by its cover. I never thought my teammates and coaches would be so supportive. It often makes me emotional when I recall how I had almost left them for good without giving them a chance to get to know the part of me that I had been hiding from the world. I would not be the strong, confident gay athlete I am today without my coaches and teammates. I have heard of some coaches that destroy their athletes’ dreams and love of the sport when they come out, but this was not the case for me at Columbia University.

Despite the positive reinforcement from my coaches, I cannot say that being an openly gay athlete has been without problems. In a team atmosphere, a lot of jokes fly through the air. Sometimes disclaimers were put on jokes such as “Cover your ears Cory,” or “...No offense Cory.” Sometimes things were said that really hurt, things that would make me go home and cry to myself and wish that I had never come out.

During my first semester of my sophomore year, I became really good friends with one of my younger teammates. We would talk all the time, hang out, and do everything that normal teammates do. One of my less-accepting teammates questioned him, asking him if he was gay because he was hanging out with me so much. My close friend, who had never met another homosexual man before in his life, consequently began hanging out with me less because he was afraid of what others might think.

It was always hard for me to respond to situations like this. I have a very reticent personality, so I never said anything because I felt, as weird as this sounds, outnumbered. I eventually stopped going to a lot of the parties, never changed in the locker room and never discussed my feelings with any of them. I was scared. I knew a lot of athletes who discontinued doing their sport because this kind of environment enhanced their concerns about coming out to their teammates.

But as time went on, a funny thing happened. As I became more comfortable with myself and open about my life, my teammates learned more about me and homosexuality. The inconsiderate comments stopped. They realized that I was one of the guys, and that my sexual orientation had nothing to do with the type of person and athlete I was.

One of the most memorable moments of my life took place during spring break of 2008. Practice was low-key, so my teammates and I had time to enjoy the city for the week. It was late at night and we were walking around campus, and they all said, “Let’s go to Suite.” Suite is a gay karaoke bar right near our campus, hosted by Ms. Jacqueline Dupree, a drag queen. It’s maybe the last place I would have never invited them.

Still, there we were around midnight, a couple of us at Suite singing a few songs. Sooner or later, more and more teammates showed up. We crowded the place. My teammates were having a great time and were talking to other gays and lesbians. They surprised me, and the gay people there surprised them. My teammates were in awe of how comfortable they felt.

One of my teammates, who I thought was the most homophobic of them all, told me at the end of the night that he had the best time of his life, and that he would be nothing but supportive of me for life. This meant so much to me because I realized that I needed to give myself a chance to accept others just as much as I needed to give other people a chance to accept me. I was still their teammate and I was still capable of being loved by them. It was the first time in my life that I felt completely comfortable sharing a part of my life that I had hidden even as an openly gay athlete.

Two athletes outside my team have helped me a lot along the way. Jamal Brown was an openly gay runner for Dartmouth College who was there for me during my really low points at Columbia. Jamal has always been a great source of advice, since he had been through everything I was currently going through. To personally know another openly gay athlete has helped me so much as I adapt to being my true self in this environment. And while Scott Herman is not a fellow runner, he is one of the people I look up to most today. He has inspired me to give it my all for my last semester at Columbia. I appreciate them both immensely.

As I approach my last season at Columbia, I come with no regrets. I love who I have become and I love the people I have met throughout my journey as an openly gay athlete. The support I have received from my friends, family, teammates and the university has empowered me in more ways than I have yet to realize.

If I could leave a piece of advice for other LGBT collegiate athletes, I would say to never forget that a teammate is a teammate, regardless of their color, creed, or sexual orientation. There is a strong bond between teammates that cannot be destroyed. You kill yourself out on the track, or field, every day alongside them. You sweat, you bleed, and you cry for the same cause—to win for your school, for each other, and for yourselves. As a result, your teammates will be your best friends forever. Your sexual orientation will never change your goals and your dreams unless you allow it.

Oh and by the way, that 800-meter race I mentioned at the start? I ran my fastest time ever.

Caption This Pic

Found this on a black awareness website I stumbed across. Caption this pic.

Eye games

Eye games. We all play them. Sometimes with fats girls with low self esteem I'll lick my lips and give them a scan to bring a smile to their face. With dudes with feminine traits I give a plain confused look so as not to hurt feelings (I have a heart believe it or not). The best ones are where my type is looking when i'm unaware until I catch their stare and then they look down.

Eye game situation number 1. There was this guy who works in a retail shop near the call centre where I work and he was stupid good looking. I swear I could lose myself in my thoughts about what I do if I got the green light.

Eye game number 2. Then there is this other guy who often I see when I get on the underground who works at the station. Always always eye games. Some days I feel like writing him a letter where the last line would be: so if you are on it text me, if not whenever you see me, act like the letter never happened.

The fact that its getting warmer this days doesn't help matters. Don't think I'll push either situation though as sometimes the curiousity of looking and not touching is the best feeling.

Wednesday, 28 April 2010

Finding Me 2 Trailer

The trailer for Finding Me Truth surfaced on youtube recently. Peep the trailer below.

Fuck leading people on, if you ain't gonna give the title...

Be real about it.

At this point I do not want to be in serious relationships not because I am emotionally immature, inadequate, scared of getting hurt or waiting for the right person to come along, but because I am independent, feel fulfilled in my own right and emotionally secure. I like to flow in life and truly believe that a serious relationship would stop that flow and not add much to my growth.

Here are some good ways to have that conversation:

"I'm not looking for something serious"

"I'm not really looking for a relationship right now, so if we were to see each other, it would be just that"

"Are you cool with us going with the flow?"

"I want to explore our chemistry without having to check in with you emotionally. Is that cool?"

Have you ever been in this place mentally? What approaches worked for you?


 Are you trustworthy? Yeah? Ok how about I let you into a little secret. If you said yes then you are a liar!

Whenever someone confides in you, you in turn confide that information in the person or in some cases people that you feel you can trust, no matter what you said to the person confiding in you. The end result is a vicious gossip situation.

If you don't liked being talked about keep your mouth shut. Simple. A secret is not a secret if more than 1 person knows.

Dudes that get down are notorius for this shit, (including the discreet dudes) so don't let a good looking face or good vibe for that matter fool you.

Am I wrong?

Sunday, 25 April 2010


I've seen this NEXT ad with this stupid beautiful girl and been wondering who she is. Well I did some digging and come to find, she is Emanuela De Paula.

Check out some of her work:


Man skin maintenance: Top 5 tips to stay on point

Every man needs an Andis shaver. Its not about having a scarred face from wet shaving.

Another choice is Magic Shave. This make your face smooth like a baby but leave it on too long and your skin won't like it.

Next up Clinique skin supplies for men. After shaving you got to scrub off all the dirt and that and this way this makes your skin look clean and clear makes it worth the money most def.

For body lotion that doesn't leave your skin feeling like you never put lotion on to begin with its all about Nivea.

And finally Tea Tree wipes  from the Body Shop just make sure that if you see a zit appearing the night before, a wipe before bed means that it ain't causing problems in the morning.

What products do you use to stay on point?

Caption this video of a boy dancing to Rihanna's rude boy

Peep this video of a boy dancing to Rihanna's rude boy.

How would you caption this video?

Saturday, 24 April 2010

Friday, 23 April 2010

Naomi C is that chick

Naomi Campbell is that chick. Check the way she handles this comfortable situation staged by ABC News.

Thursday, 22 April 2010

I am going to hell for laughing at this?

Check out this video from the show intervention where boxer Rocky Lockridge is confronted by his son who's life he was absent from while he was growing up due to Crack addiction.

When I heard that wail it was a wrap, and the guy who made the video rewinding the vid over and over weren't helping matters.

Am I wrong?

Wednesday, 21 April 2010

This Movie FIT...

So I came across the trailer for this movie called Fit. I really want to hunt it down.

Looks good in an interesting way. Now let me see if I can buy it online...

Tuesday, 20 April 2010

So you ain't gonna let me top you?

With guys, when it comes to sex, I know what I like and I know what I don't. I like to fuck and I love foreplay. I don't like getting my ass licked and I don't like the idea of being fucked.

I think its important in 2010 to know yourself sexually speaking. If you like to be on the receiving receiving end of the things I don't like then that can work. Alternatively if there are things I would normally like that you don't then we can find some middle ground.

So why is it that when a potential love / lust interest is trying to see what you are looking to get into and you lay down where you stand, they still try to turn you out?

Shit like:

"What would it take for a guy like me to feel your inner warmth?"

"Let me get that ass"

"Just do it it feels good"

"If you love me you will do this"

"I swear its not gonna hurt, just smoke a spliff before we do it"

"Every man is a bottom for the right man, am I the right bredda for you?"

"Just let me slide in, and if you want me to stop, I promise I will."

Can anyone out there relate?

Sunday, 18 April 2010

Short Film: Seefood


A good example of a long term male relationship

I was thinking to myself, are there any relationships that I can look to and be inspired by? Because more often than not fellas are on some dumb shit. In my search I came across these web clips from the duo behind DL Chronicles Quincy Lenear and Deondray Gossett. I had no idea that they had been together for 10 years and still going strong.

Check out the clips below.

The OUTside of Relationships Season 1 Episode1: Falling

The OUTside of Relationships | MySpace Video

The Outside of Relationships Season 1 Episode 2

The OUTside of Relationships | MySpace Video

Outside of Relationships Season 1 Episode 3

The OUTside of Relationships | MySpace Video

How Gay is Too Gay?

How gay is too gay? What the video below. Personally I think that if you choose to be flamboyant then it should be called too flamboyant because being flamboyant and being attracted to men are two completely different things.

What do you think?


Just saw this and I can't stop laughing.

2010 - Words To Live By

Just got done checking my emails. This one was a good one so I thought I'd share.


1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.

11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control.
Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with
his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away
like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Last but not the least:
40. Share this to everyone you care about.

We may have welcomed this year on a bit of a rough patch,
But things will go back up and everything will hopefully be alright.

L I V E L I F E T O T H E F U L L E S T !

Saturday, 17 April 2010

Question: What is the song in this Adidas Originals Ad?

The adidas advert features familiar faces. But what I wanna know is who sings the song in the background?

Help me out people. It is really bugging me!

Thursday, 15 April 2010

The Kids Say The Funniest Things

@loveBscott : "I'm not going to tell you what we were doing, but what we were doing was so blissful that I woke up with such a peace."

I needed that laugh and I miss these retrospective videos.


Tuesday, 13 April 2010

Room For Rent : $150 Per Month

Check out this video from youtuber Kingsley. Kind of reminds me of Bscott before he went all Hollywood. The video is gay as shit but the sound effects are killing me.

(Video) Linsday Lohan asked: "Are you back on the DICK?"

Poor her. I bet she wanted the ground to swallow her up.

Saturday, 10 April 2010

But if you finding him on bgc you lose him to bgc. That's the way it goes

I was dating a guy for six months. Met him through BGC. Usually I don't give BGC members with their photos available for all to see my time as it instantly screams been around the block and I don't give a fuck who knows. I'm more about the profile and getting to know someone through their words. This guy has topless but faceless snaps and a good profile.

After a few messages back and forth and msn messenger conversations later, we started the dusk til dawn talks and eventually caught up in Green Park to put faces to names. Day was a thumbs up. A month later I ask him if he wants to make it official. He agrees.

So wtf did he have a bgc still that he was logging onto daily even after we were 5 months deep? I confronted him about it and his line was that he "Used it to make friends" and that it was like the brother 2 brother version of facebook.

I weren't buying what my man was trying to sell me so it was a wrap from me. We're still good friends though.

Do you believe that if you find him on bgc you lose him to bgc?


Do You Want To Lick My?

Gay as shit, but weirdly funny as hell as well.

Friday, 9 April 2010

"What" we are is simply window dressing. "Who" we are is where the person is, is where our humanity is

Check out this good article I read over on CNN.

Editor's note: LZ Granderson is a senior writer and columnist for ESPN The Magazine and, and has contributed to ESPN's Sports Center, Outside the Lines and First Take. He is a 2010 nominee and the 2009 winner of the Gay & Lesbian Alliance Against Defamation (GLAAD) award for online journalism as well as the 2008 National Lesbian and Gay Journalists Association (NLGJA) winner for column writing. 

(CNN) -- On most mornings, my better half wakes up around 5:30, throws on some sweats and heads to the gym before work.

About a half hour later, I wake up my 13-year-old son, go downstairs to the kitchen to make his breakfast and pack his lunch. Once he's out the door, I brew some coffee and get to work.

Ladies and gentlemen, may I present to you the "gay lifestyle" -- run for your heterosexual lives.
I understand opponents of gay rights must highlight differences in order to maintain the "us against them" tension that's paramount to their arguments. But this notion that sexual orientation comes with a different and pre-ordained way of life -- as if we're all ordering the No. 3 at a drive thru -- only highlights how irrational groups such as Focus on the Family, the Family Research Council, the American Family Association and others like them are in this whole debate.

Pro-marriage organizations try to stop two consenting adults from marrying. Pro-family groups try to stop stable couples wanting children from adopting unloved orphans.

And somehow, me doing something like going to the grocery store threatens the very fabric of society, as Oklahoma State Rep. Sally Kern spewed. She says "the homosexual agenda is destroying this nation" and "homosexuality is more of a threat than terrorism." I'm not sure what her idea of a gay lifestyle might be, but with a growing teenager, buying and cooking food dominates my day-to-day.

I don't worship Barbra Streisand, I don't watch any TV show with the word "Housewives" in its title and I love fishing, beer and Madonna. But more important, I'm just a father trying to keep my son away from drugs, get him into college and have a little money left over for retirement. I'm no sociologist but I'm pretty sure those concerns are not exclusive to gay people.

In one of the most pivotal scenes in the biopic "Milk," Harvey Milk, played by Sean Penn, gathers a group of community organizers and activists to come up with strategies to combat a 1978 ballot initiative that sought to ban LGBT (lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender) teachers and their supporters from working in public schools in California. As the small crowd settles down, Milk quickly glances around the room and says ..
"If we're going to convince the 90 percent to give a ---- about us 10 percent, we have to let them know who we are ..."

"What" we are -- be it gay, straight, black, white -- is simply window dressing. "Who" we are is where the substance is, where the person is, where our humanity is.
Too often, discussions about gay people and gay rights focus on sex, as if a person's entire being is defined by his or her Hollywood crush.

This fixation has been the crux behind attempts to link gay men to pedophilia -- from John Briggs, a state legislator from Orange County who introduced the proposed ban on gay teachers in California, to the Catholic League's Bill Donohue, whose recent attempts to excuse the church for its global scandal coverup by seemingly blaming homosexuality -- and it's a tactic that is evil incarnate.
"The vast majority of the victims are post-pubescent," Donohue recently said on "Larry King Live." "That's not pedophilia, buddy. That's homosexuality."
Actually, Bill, sexual predators whose victims are 13- to 17-years-old are called hebephiles -- a la Joey Buttafuoco, Madeleine Martin and Heather Kennedy -- not homosexuals. And that still doesn't explain why the church opted to save face as opposed to, in the words of the infamous anti-gay figurehead Anita Bryant, "Save our children."

Being gay doesn't dictate how people live their lives any more than being straight does. There are gay people who go to church every Sunday and straight people who do not believe in God. There are single gay men who believe in the sanctity of marriage and married straight men who apparently do not -- such as Gov. Mark Sanford, ex-Sen. John Edwards and Sen. John Ensign, to name a few.

The truth is the only thing all gay people have in common -- you know, besides being gay -- is that we face continuous rhetorical, social and legal attacks for simply existing, thus potentially making something as mundane as bringing a date to a work function a fight-or-flee situation.

And yet, even in the face of that discrimination, LGBT people all handle it differently.
Some of us live in the closet, some of us do drag every Wednesday night, some of us are Republicans hoping to be change agents within a conservative sect and some of us are apathetic Democrats too dumb to carry on a conversation about anything other than Lady Gaga.
In other words, we're just as diverse, intolerant, upstanding and tragic as our straight counterparts and unless there is an annual meeting I don't know about, the only item on the much talked-about gay agenda is an abbreviated passage from the Declaration of Independence -- "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal."

In 29 states, people can be fired simply for being gay regardless of their education, experience or job performance; servicemen and women can be dismissed from the military regardless of their qualifications, dedication and courage; and partners are unable to see their better halves in the hospital regardless of the love, commitment and life they share.

Wanting to be judged by the content of one's character isn't a special right, it's a constitutional one guaranteed by the 14th and 15th amendments.

And yet, 145 years since the abolition of slavery, 90 years since women were allowed to vote and 20 years since the Americans with Disabilities Act, we're still involved in McCarthy-like investigations, holding Briggs-like elections and taking opinion polls based solely upon "what" someone is as opposed to "who" they are.

It's sad. We're such a great nation, still full of great hope and promise and yet we keep being tripped up by ignorance, which leads to fear and then eventually hate. Being gay isn't a choice, but being a bigot certainly is.
The opinions expressed in this commentary are solely those of LZ Granderson.


Good Article don't you think?

Tuesday, 6 April 2010

Tease Interview Part 2: Tease Talks STDs, Being A Bottom & Future Appearances

In part 2 Tease confronts the situation that leads to his porn debut, coming out to his mom, sexual health and playing his position as bottom but wanting to switch it up.

Let's jump right in!

Black_L0ndoner: You're a bottom, what do you enjoy most about playing your position?
Tease: Lol... I think I just like the whole masculine thing. It’s always been a turn on to have another MASCULINE guy to touch, kiss, and so on. I just enjoy sexual encounters with other MASCULINE guys.
Black_L0ndoner: So you put it out there on twitter that you are thinking of being verse? What prompted that?
Tease: Well I just recently attended this party and one thing lead to another and I was getting head for the first time by these two guys and I actually enjoyed it. Well let’s just say I wasn’t expecting to get a hard on seeing as that was my first time receiving head.
Black_L0ndoner: first time? Nigga you been missing out. LOL
Tease: I actually enjoyed it and thought about bending they asses over but I haven’t got that far yet. LOL.
Black_L0ndoner: The stereotype is usually porn stars get into it because their past isn't too rosy. Given you are 19 now what is your story?
Tease: I just wanted to make some easy money. I wanted to mix money with pleasure and not to mention the fact that the sex would be taped made it even more exciting for me.
Black_L0ndoner: I'm not one to knock somebody's hustle, but what do you say to people who wonder why you were attracted to doing PORN in opposed to say going to college?
Tease: I don’t really answer that question because its not there business... But I will be attending college, I’m saving up now and porn adds a lil extra to my account.
Black_L0ndoner: So what is the long term goal with porn?
Tease: I thought about tryna manage my own studio later on down the road. But for now I’m just gonna make as much money as I can.
Black_L0ndoner: For the people than say that there is no $ in porn how much can an actor expect per scene?
Tease: I guess the average is about $400 or more depending on your experience. But then there are some companies that don’t pay less than $900. All depends on what studios you’re working with.
Black_L0ndoner: Just wanna go back to the question about the not so rosy past. I know you said you didn't wanna talk about it but I think the openness would earn the respect of your fans for being real. You cool to elab just a little on the lead up of you getting into the game?
Tease: Well it all started after I gave up my apartment and job to move with a family member in Tampa who I hadn’t seen in almost 16 years but she raised me as a child. So my lease was up and instead of renewing I left to live with her. One word... disaster. Biggest mistake of my life I get teary eyed when I think about it.
I mean I didn’t have much but I had a job and I had enough money to pay my household bills, food to eat and a place to call my own. But I gave that up for what I thought might be a lil more easier on me.
Believe me I was struggling getting paid every two weeks just barely having to have enough for lights, water, rent, and cell phone bill so I was almost always late... Lol! But I managed to stick it out without being evicted.
So after my lease was up I thought to myself did I wanna go thru the struggles again? I decided that maybe moving in with some family and saving some money would be a lil better. Then I got there and I was living with my uncles ex wife which was a white lady, she had re-married and had kids. And the worst part she had 5 annoying ass lil racist dogs!
I had to tip toe thru the house at night just to use the bathroom, because the dogs would bark and wake up the lil new born. Had to sit outside just to talk on my phone because my voices carries and when the dogs heard me from the back room they would bark non stop.
Then they had the police poppin’ up to there house every other weekend because they would get drunk and start fights with each other, it was basically HELL.
So when Reduell (Guy I did amateur porn for) hit me up on yahoo and asked would I ever do porn, I said yes without hesitation. I wanted to get the fuck outta dat house and I knew porn was easy money and it would get me out of there.
I just basically wanna get back to where I was when I had my own shit. There truly is nothing better than having your own, and if I knew my time down in Tampa woulda been like that I would have stuck with struggling in my Apt in Daytona Beach. At least I had my own shit and I had the money to pay for it even with the struggles
So basically I’m on a mission to get back to where I was in Daytona but this time without da struggles.
Black_L0ndoner: Is your situation better than at your aunts at this point?
Tease: Yes 100% better
Black_L0ndoner: That's what's up! Other than that, good relations with your immediate fam?
Tease: Dad is gone, first time I meet him was when I went to Jamaica for his funeral. I was too light skinned when I was born so he denied me as a child.
Mom - Our relationship is getting back in track, she just can't believe that I’m gay after all the years of playing basketball. LOL.
Love all four of my brothers, and my two sisters even tho one of my sisters HATES me! Lol, but her knowing I love her will make her hate me even more, so that’s my lil way of getting back at her. LOL.
Black_L0ndoner: I'm sure she loves you right back lol. So how did you drop it to your mom that you were gay?
Tease: Well after I got into my own Apt I waited til new years 2009 to tell the family and when I went over my moms house I just said "Ma I know your not gonna like this but I want you to meet my BF" She screamed "BF?".
Then she said "How da hell are you gonna be gay after all these years of playing basketball. I thought the cheerleaders gave all the football and basketball players some pussy" LOL.
Now she has gotten too comfortable with it, I find myself around her and when she talks to me she refers to me as "GIRL"! Lol... I had to tell her just because I’m gay doesn’t mean I’m gonna carry myself or act like a female. I mean yea I like to be fucked like ya average female, but I’m still a dude when its all said and done.
Black_L0ndoner: Aight let’s touch quickly on the nails man… What’s the deal?
Tease: I don’t clip my nails I just let them fall off. Lmao well I guess you can say I just let them break off when I play ball. Aye I keep um clean though... Lol.
Black_L0ndoner: How importantly do you take your sexual health?
Tease: Top priority... I know some people might think I don’t care because I've done a couple raw films but I take my health very serious. And I can proudly say I’m HIV and STD negative as of March 23 2010!
 Black_L0ndoner: What's the best thing about your job?
Tease: The money and when I get to work wit someone sexy and masculine.
Black_L0ndoner: Ultimate sexual fantasy?
Tease: Not sure I have one I try and make every sexual encounter a fantasy for me and whoever I’m having sexual contact with at the time.
 Black_L0ndoner: Worst thing about your job?
Tease: When you film with someone den later find out that the do drag part time. LOL.
Black_L0ndoner:  LOL
Black_L0ndoner: Have you got your own site online?
Tease: Not yet... I’m actually working on getting a blog page up, so for the people on my yahoo and twitter, they will get updated when it goes up.
Black_L0ndoner: Any club appearances planned for the near future (Sizzle / NYC pride / ATL pride)?
Tease: Sizzle right now... But I have someone setting up some more events.
Black_L0ndoner: How can your fans / promoters get at you?
Tease: Well I'm on yahoo instant messenger literally 24/7 so on there screen name (Tease1990) and on twitter
Black_L0ndoner: We’re done. Thanks for your time man. How was it for you?
Tease: It was aight. Felt good to talk about some stuff to let people know what its like in my world.

Monday, 5 April 2010

Tease Interview Part 1: Tease talks Studios, Types, Thugzilla and Drugs

Tease Interview Part 1: Tease talks Studios, Types, Thugzilla and Drugs

Recently I managed to pin down someone, who at 19 is a new face to black porn. Amongst other things, we talk drugs, his studio situation, his status of his rumoured relationship with fellow porn star Thugzilla, and his type. Tease. You ready for the questions?

Tease: Yep
Black.L0ndoner: well let’s go! Lol
Black.L0ndoner: How does it feel to be generating buzz as the new face in black porn?
Tease: I’m doing pretty good cant complain, and as far as generating a buzz I didn’t think I was making that much of an impact but hey I’ll take it.
Black_L0ndoner: Recently you did some work with Thug Seduction and co-starred with Ace but you started out at Thugzilla. What's your current studio situation?
Tease: Well at the time me and Thugzilla had I guess what you would call a relationship that didn’t turn out to well...
 He only wanted me working with him in productions, but he could work with who ever. So I eventually left the whole situation because I got into porn for the money and he was causing me to miss out on money making opportunities. So I went to Thug Seduction and that’s kinda like become my new home. Very professional and they are all about their money just like myself.

Black_L0ndoner: Who are some porn stars whose work you admire that you would like to work with?
Tease: if I had to choose for gay porn it would be Dnice, Dre Sexy, and Ace Rockwood (one more time).The best part is they all work with Thug Seduction so hopefully those vids will come true...

Black_L0ndoner: What is your personal relationship like with Thugzilla now?
Tease: Well we don't speak at all, after our break up every time I got on twitter one of his FANS would send me a message talking shit. So basically drama was being said about me on twitter to make everyone think I was the bad guy which was not the case at all.
Black_L0ndoner: Go on...
Tease: Aight... Well I mean it was just a whole bunch of lies, cheating just a bunch of bullshit. I dealt with it for a while {which is something I wouldn’t normally do} and I think that was because I really liked him at one point. I had no type of freedom. Every time I wanted to do something I was accused of cheating. I used to ask him how da fuck can I cheat when I’m here with yo ass 24/7 and not to mention I knew no one in Atlanta, so I basically had to try and become friends with his friends. An we hang with two totally different crowds. I remember times he would say he was going to get us some green and be gone for like 4 hours and mind you this happened more once or twice, and every time he would come back he had a story about how something happened. When really he was out fuckin. He had and A4A and BGC and didn’t want me to have one. He said he used those sites to get models when really he was doing that and giving his number out to every nigga on there.
So basically our relationship was a train wreck. But yet people seem to think I was the one in the wrong and that’s because they don't know what happened except from what they heard from his on twitter. So they made their own conclusion on what happened between me and thug.
Black_L0ndoner: Cool. Apart from the greenery have you tried anything else?
Tease: Lol... naw,  I stay away from the other drugs
Black_L0ndoner: So what’s the difference between on screen Tease and Tease when the cameras stop rolling?
Tease: Tease is my freaky side that’s all about his cash and Tease when the cameras stop rolling is every mans dream guy; lets just say the whole package.
Black_L0ndoner: That's a good look. So you are chilling on the sidewalk and a fly nigga is giving you the eye? What advice you give said dude trying to get at you?
Tease: Go for it because I prob think you sexy anyways but I don’t approach people like that so unless you come to me we might not never know what could happen between us. Just be yourself trust me you will know if I’m not interested, because I will almost certainly answer every question with a laugh if I’m not feelin you

Black_L0ndoner: What is Tease's type?
Tease: I love dark skin, masculine guys. Having someone taller may be nice for a change lol. But for the most part I try not to be to picky I mean I’m not gonna talk to any dude...Lol. My dream dude would look like Chad Johnson WR for the Cincinnati Bengals. He is so damn sexy.
In part 2, Tease confronts the situation that leads to his porn debut, coming out to his mom, sexual health and playing his position as bottom but wanting to switch it up. For part 2, click the link below.


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